urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ivegiventoomuch the only thing to do, is take that 1st step into the light Stephanie 2006-04-30T01:29:15Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ivegiventoomuch:24237 2006-04-30T01:29:15Z 2006-04-30T01:29:15Z I LOVE YOU MORE THAN YOU'LL EVER KNOW!<br /><a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i21.photobucket.com/albums/b271/Sk8erChik70828/img015.jpg" border="0" alt="Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting"></a><br />in loving memory<br /><br />but the worst part is, is that she doesnt even remember me...<br /><a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i21.photobucket.com/albums/b271/Sk8erChik70828/img014.jpg" border="0" alt="Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting"></a><br /><br /><br />i love you both, and miss you very much, even though shes not gone yet, well, not all the way....<br /><a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i21.photobucket.com/albums/b271/Sk8erChik70828/img016.jpg" border="0" alt="Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting"></a><br /><br />I LOVE YOU NANA! PLEASE GET BETTER! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ivegiventoomuch:23473 2006-04-07T01:32:20Z 2006-04-07T01:32:20Z silence The happiest moment you can remember that included:<br />your mother<br />do you remember?<br />your father<br />can you remember?<br />your best friend<br />have you had one?<br />your faith<br />who do you rely on?<br />yourself<br />do you like yourself?<br /><br />can you remember any of these things? are they important to you?<br /><br />LOVE TO ME:<br />talking about nothing<br />singing at the top of your lungs<br />dancing like crazy<br />beleiving like the world will never end if you just hang on<br />thinking about your dreams<br />smiling until it hurts<br />laughing utnil you cry<br />feeling somthing stronger than you've ever felt before<br />being stupid and crazy<br />having the best conversations where nothing wrong can happen, where you dont remember anything the next day eccept that you laughed;that you were happy<br /><br />what is love? being happier than you have before and praying to God that nothing will change...not for a long long time<br /><br /><br /><br />I'm truthfully, really, very, happy.... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ivegiventoomuch:23130 2006-03-27T03:14:45Z 2006-03-27T03:14:45Z forever faithful im so upset because im home and not at the beach with craig and micha and tim and britney and derek and everybody else i know there. i miss you guys so much and i cant wait until the next time i see you<br /><br />BEACH RETREAT 2006 ROCKED HARDER THAN EVER!<br /><br />~totally MAZing~ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ivegiventoomuch:22600 2006-03-15T00:28:59Z 2006-03-15T00:28:59Z Big Fish Happy Freaking PIE Day!!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ivegiventoomuch:22403 2006-03-11T21:47:28Z 2006-03-11T21:47:28Z she wore an itsy bitsy teeny weenie yellow poka-dot... alright, so i havent done much today, i went to my step-dad's chili cook off and yea, my mom and my sister ate so much chili i wanted to throw up! dont get my wrong, its not that i dont like chili, its just that i dont really like tomatos, and that much chili on a hot day...ewww!<br /><br />so then we went to go drop my sister off at soccar, which the car ride over there was probably the best part of the day, becuase it was just the girls like it used to be in the car with the raido blaring and the windows down...and it was warm!<br /><br />then i came home and put on my new yellow poka-dotted baithing suit and went and layed out around the pool deck...then i came inside and took a shower and now i have to do homework and clean my room because power point is over here again tomorrow....<br /><br />last night was a lot of fun! i went to battle of the bands with taylor and met up with like, everybody...okay, so there were some people who didnt show up that siad they were going, but thats okay, i'll forgive them....this time...just kidding...<br /><br />anyways, some of the bands were pretty good, and some of them werent, but it was a lot of fun just getting to hang out with some of my friends and stuff...<br /><br />well, i guess im gonna go, hope yall are having as good a week as i am!<br /><br />~&hearts;~ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ivegiventoomuch:21943 2006-02-24T04:00:31Z 2006-02-24T04:00:31Z perfect....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />except for one small detail<br /><br />~&hearts;~ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ivegiventoomuch:21314 2006-01-29T20:02:42Z 2006-01-29T20:02:42Z dashboard confessionals okay, well, lj is really stupid now, and maybe it has something to do with the fact that im always really busy and dont even have time to get online or maybe its just because its stupid, who knows...<br /><br />so this week started out like BAD! i got in trouble for my math grade and then it got better and better ending up with Craig comming and hanging out all day on thursday and me getting to skip school to drama compatition on friday and sat and then the pagent<br /><br />im really kinda disappointed in myself because at compatition our dance got 3rd, and i half expected to get either 1st or 2nd, and those who did win were good, but they didnt have much talent, they were just emoted it more and used more dramatic means of dance, or, were more creative and that was really really really funny!<br /><br />so right now its about 2 o'clock and im really tired and i just wanna go home, but im at my daddy's house...and i have lots of homework and chior tonight...48 days...<br /><br />hope everybody has a good week...talk to ya'll monday...<br /><br />~&hearts;~ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ivegiventoomuch:21220 2006-01-18T02:43:23Z 2006-01-18T02:43:23Z Phantom of the Opera <a name="cutid1"></a><br />10 favorite movies:<br />1. Rent<br />2. Phantom of the Opera<br />3. How to Deal<br />4. The Notebook<br />5. Cat in the Hat<br />6. The Grench<br />7. Hangman's Curse<br />8. Secret Window<br />9. Ring 1<br />10. Ring 2<br /><br />9 favorite books:<br />1. Dreamland<br />2. This lullaby<br />3. Someone like you<br />4. That summer<br />5. Speak<br />6. Catalyst<br />7. Diary of teenage Girl<br />8. Absolutly Normal Chaos<br />9. Cat in the Hat<br /><br />8 favorite people:<br />1. God<br />2. Mom<br />3. Staci<br />4. Daddy<br />5. Grandma<br />6. Nana<br />7. Heather<br />8. too many people<br /><br />7 favorite foods:<br />1. Laffy Taffy<br />2. Chocolate<br />3. Pizza<br />4. Toco<br />5. Mac-and-Cheese<br />6. Cereal<br />7. Sausage<br /><br />6 favorite tv shows:<br />1. Gilmore Girls<br />2. Boy meets World<br />3. Real World<br />4. i dont really watch much tv<br />5. "..."<br />6. "..."<br /><br />5 favorite songs:<br />1. Rain<br />2. There is<br />3. Rumors of my demise<br />4. no more favorites i dont guess<br />5. "..."<br /><br />4 favorite vacation spots:<br />1. Beach<br />2. Utah<br />3. New York<br />4. Hawaii<br /><br />3 favorite memories:<br />1. daddy/singing<br />2. grandpa/popeye<br />3. mom/random questions<br /><br />2 favorite colors:<br />1. yellow<br />2. grey urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ivegiventoomuch:20807 2006-01-16T19:10:08Z 2006-01-16T19:10:08Z L is for the way you look at me...all weekend wow, that trip was mostly FUN...<br /><br />the car rides were fun, and the skiing was fun, and the swing downstiars was fun, and hanging out with various people were fun, and pigging out on junk food was fun, and being lazy was fun, and fighting about certian youth ministers wasnt so fun...but i guess we couldnt have avoided that one....some parts of the trip were awkward...but i dont guess i could have avoided that either...and right now im soooooooooooo tired that its hard to type...again, i guess unaviodable...<br /><br />so im glad that i went, but on the other hand i missed something very important to me here, and so im not so glad that i missed that...maybe i'll be able to make up for it soon..<br /><br />anyways, hope ya'll enjoyed your weekend as much as i did<br /><br />~&hearts;~ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ivegiventoomuch:20635 2006-01-12T02:44:59Z 2006-01-12T02:59:42Z wow, today was a good day at school and all....<br /><br />church was hilarious...props!<br /><br />afterwards we went to brusters, which was cool cuz i was getting away from here and all the problems that "here" consists of...i felt myself comming out of the bubble ive been in for 3 days, but as soon as i opened the door to my house i got pushed back into it...<br /><br />fun, but wierd...<br /><br />2 days! only 2 more days!<br /><br />~&hearst;~<br /><br />p.s.<br />thanks for the prayers urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ivegiventoomuch:20359 2006-01-11T02:33:13Z 2006-01-11T02:34:25Z yea, so excuse yesterday please, and if you see me in the hall and i look upset, yea im upset, but leave it at that...everything will be okay, i swear...eventually<br /><br />my friends mom died, please keep her family in your prayers. she was an awesome lady, and its not fair to him...no questions please...the end...<br /><br />anyways,<br />love you guys, thanks for the concern...<br /><br />3 more days until the trip! wahoo! (tho i dont think we'll actually be able to ski)<br /><br />~&hearts;~ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ivegiventoomuch:19984 2006-01-09T22:19:04Z 2006-01-09T22:28:26Z DAMNIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!<br /><br />why him? why? God! he's a good kid, he's like my brother! WHY! what happened...i cant beleive this<br /><br />its so unfair...its not right...<br /><br />i cant beleive this...<br /><br />we expected a cotastraphy soon w/ tony...but this...i... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ivegiventoomuch:19768 2006-01-09T01:44:33Z 2006-01-09T03:27:25Z give me the beat boys...yea that song wow, this weekend has been some pretty crazy stuff man!<br /><br />friday night i went bowling w/ daivd and patrick and breanna and justin, and he was a pretty cool kid let me tell you! (that was for the Thespy's so that they know my oppinion)<br /><br />that was really really really really really really really really really really really really fun! oh, and DDR, me and breanna brought down the house! hahaha, NOT!<br /><br />then on yesterday, david and patrick came over and we jumped on the trampoline for forever until my toes were almost frozen and then we watched part of willy wonka, and that was a fun day, cept for the last part...sorry kids! it really is my fault!<br /><br />and finally, today, which was pretty sweet...haha...i dont think i've ever actually used that word before...sweet...haha...well, i went to church for the first time in a long time and it was fun because i missed it, and then i went home and played bass for a long long time until my fingers felt like they were gonna bleed, and then i went with my sister to walgreen's and then to church to see Rock Solid, which sounded M-A-Zing!!! oh my goodness, i cant wait until One Voice and Beach Retreat, its gonna be sooooooooooooooooooooooo much fun! And then after that Power Point which was cool...<br /><br />I CANT WAIT UNTIL NEXT WEEKEND!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!! SKI TRIP! WINTER RETREAT!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!<br /><br />love you guys<br />~&hearts;~<br /><br />::EDIT::<br />ya know what the most annoying things in the world are? the lids to medicin, like the ones you have to push down and turn at the same time...i can NEVER get those open.... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ivegiventoomuch:19515 2006-01-05T01:32:57Z 2006-01-05T01:32:57Z wow...i didnt really do anything today<br /><br />my step-dad has sergury on his sholder so he's been sleeping, which is good...<br /><br />my mom was gone most of the day w/ my sister<br /><br />i stayed in my pj's all day long, it was good, i needed that...in fact i stayed in my bed most of the day too which was cool. as soon as school starts tomorrow im gonna have no down time at all, and no sleeping late weekends until after the 3rd nine weeks, but im excited to be busy...i hope everything turns out as good as it seems it will...<br /><br />i started(and finished) this lullaby (which is by my fav. author) today...it was really good, but i still like dreamland better....i only have 2 more of her books to read, but i think im gonna wait and reread the cronicals of narnia because i kinda forgot alot about them<br /><br />our church winter retreat is in 2 weekends and im really excited because were going to skiing/snowboarding/snow tubing (dont know what the last one is) but im hoping we can shove jack in a closet or something, so that should be interesting...<br /><br />see you guys tomorrow i guess<br /><br />~&hearts;~ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ivegiventoomuch:19373 2006-01-04T04:18:02Z 2006-01-04T04:20:08Z that fight song or whatever it is..it was playing in the car man! i had a really really really fun night! fake stars, haha! hopefully again, soon!<br /><br /><br />yay<br /><br /><br />~&hearts;~<br /><br /><br />::eDit::<br />i know this may come as a shock, so you might need to sit down, but my bestest friend in the whole world is my little sister because she is so totally cool and she rocks my freakin' socks! I love her! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ivegiventoomuch:19092 2005-12-30T20:52:09Z 2005-12-30T20:57:31Z rain, again...well, it is my favorite song! ive been updating alot, sorry...but this will be if for a while because im in an argument w/ one of my parental units and im tired of him/her and am planing on rebellion. the out come i already know probably wont be good...<br /><br />also, i wanted to say Happy New Years to my friends. I have no complaints about this year, its been one of the worst i can remember, but its also been so much better than many other peoples have ever been. there are so many things this year that if i could, i would probably go back and change. but everything happened for a reason and regret is not found in my life, ever. I know that whatever happened this year God will take care of it, like he always does, and he'll take care of me...<br /><br />i can already tell that this year is gonna be a hard one, but at least i'll have my friends there beside me. My sisters will be there too, because they are awesome. one thing i've learned this christmas season is that out of most anybody sisters are the ones that you can most count on. Whatever happens, they'll always be there for you. Im really sorry that i didnt find that out sooner, but it makes life so much easier now that i have that understanding.<br /><br />yea, i saw it, and most of it is true, but i hope the talking part changes...i hope this year brings you more than you could have dreamed, and i hope that somehow things get put right, for both of us...distant plans still stand in my books....*bang*bang*<br /><br />anyways, i'll talk to you kids later, give me a call sometime on my cell, cuz i cant be grounded from that, if you dont have the number ask around, somebody has it...i love you guys! Happy New Years!<br /><br />~&hearts;~ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ivegiventoomuch:18922 2005-12-30T02:43:35Z 2005-12-30T03:12:06Z i saw shannon at dinner tonight, he looked very official in his kakiis and apron! other than that today was a very uneventful day...tomorrow should be better...<br /><br />my mom pointed out that this will be my very last lazy break! daddy opens his store in january and i start working (come and visit me sometime! its between academy and publix at lee branch!)<br /><br />watching a movie, and though i've heard this all my life, it got to me, "you've got your entire life ahead of you, a big future, dont worry so much"...i used to be so optomistic, i never worried about anything, and i always saw the good, and latley thats been screwed over...its time to get back to that me, i enjoy that me better...laughing and smiling and seeing the good...i cant wait!<br /><br />"next year, SAT is gonna stand for Stoned and Toasted!" great line!<br /><br />anyways, here are some holiday pictures!<br /><br />enjoy!<br /><br /><a name="cutid1"></a><br /><br /><img src="http://i21.photobucket.com/albums/b271/Sk8erChik70828/100_1659.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com"><br />Staci's Present<br /><br /><img src="http://i21.photobucket.com/albums/b271/Sk8erChik70828/100_1665.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com"><br />my favorit jacket in the whole world! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ivegiventoomuch:18594 2005-12-29T22:47:22Z 2005-12-29T22:47:22Z gilmore...duh! i have to quit thinking, i cant wait till school starts back, this break is just messing my mind up...<br /><br />i love my sister, and my mom...!<br /><br />thanks ashley, your totally awesome and 100% helpful!<br /><br />yea! go Temprary Status, or whatever it was!<br />haha, ggggggggggeeeeeerrrrraaattttttteeeeeee fun!<br /><br />~&hearts;~ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ivegiventoomuch:18149 2005-12-26T04:11:28Z 2005-12-26T04:11:28Z have a holly jolly christmas! Man oh man! it was a gooooooooooooooooooooood christmas in my house today!<br /><br />I got an awesome new bass amp and an awesome new strap and im getting my new cell tomorrow (i get to pick it out!) and i got this M-A-zing new jacket and LOOOTS of money so im not broke any more and lots and lots and lots of cool stuff!<br /><br />Although I got all this cool stuff today, what I liked most was who i got to hang out with. Me and Staci, by some merical, got along and hung out like all day! i also got to actually hang out with my daddy and not just be in the same house. i hung out with my mom and thats always fun, and i also got to hang out with David, which is always fun. So all in all what made today a good day was the people.<br /><br />I also want to say (and i know there have been enough rants about this) Happy Birthday to Jesus. Without him I wouldnt have any of these presents or any of these people or anything at all. God sent his son for me, and yes, for everybody else, but he had me in mind. His son was to later die on the cross for me, that was why he was sent, but man, without his birth, there would be no cross and no redemption and no salvation, and no eternity in heaven.<br /><br />Thankyou Jesus, Happy Birhtday!<br />Merry Christmas you guys!<br />goodnight you<br />goodnight my someone<br />goodnight all<br />~&hearts;~ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ivegiventoomuch:17892 2005-12-25T02:34:29Z 2005-12-25T02:34:29Z happy birthday today was awesome! on the way back from my mawmaw's we sang christmas carols like we do every year on the way home, but this year was diffrent, all i could think about was how lucky i am to have my awesome mom and great sister.<br />i did pretty well with my dance at church i guess, a load of stress off thats for sure, after some people told me that i made them cry, which i guess made me feel good knowing that i had touched somebody in that way!<br /><br />anyways, merry Christmas...please member the reason for the season, not just the presents!<br /><br />Happy Birthday Jesus!<br />~&hearts;~ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ivegiventoomuch:17538 2005-12-23T18:59:56Z 2005-12-23T18:59:56Z YAY!!!!!!!!!!!! my daddy is actually gonna come see me dance at the christmas eve service tomorrow! i didnt think he would come! but he's comming! yay!<br />man i must have done something right this time! :)<br />~&hearts;~<br />p.s. king kong is really good! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ivegiventoomuch:17153 2005-12-21T20:35:11Z 2005-12-21T20:35:11Z your a mean one....mr. grench (yes you are!) life is on my side right now! i love feeling this way! i really hope it can last for a long long time! i need to get out of the house im gonna go do something this afternoon...so if you wanna do something over christmas break call me and let me know...<br />im officially done christmas shopping! yay! i wrapped everything today cept my daddy's present and the thespy presents, but they already know what they are so i dont guess it matters if i wrap them cept its way cool to unwrap something (thats why i dont put presents in bags usually!) so i'll wrap them anyways, no worries!<br />my parents have been gone bascially all break which i miss my mom, but other than that it's been great! staci on the other hand, has been here the whole time and today she has some snotty friend over who is loud and abnoxious! i think im gonna kick them out of the house and make them stay outside.<br />yesterday i went shopping with patrick and that was cool. we got to talk and hang out and stuff, which was cool cuz i havent gotten to hang out with him in a while. i just wish i could go and hang out with heather, but she's too busy with chad...o well...at least she's happy.<br />watched all of gilmore girls season 3 over 3 days, it was good, and i had nothing else do to....haha, it was cool tho...and the grench, and phantom of the opea, cant WAIT until rent comes out on DVD! cant wait until the producers comes out in theaters! and i kinda wanna go see narnia...<br />anyways, im gonna go!<br />~&hearts;~ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ivegiventoomuch:16901 2005-12-20T04:42:32Z 2005-12-20T04:42:32Z rain well, that didnt last long<br /><br />he's way too good!<br /><br />im really excited...happy<br /><br />~&hearts;~ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ivegiventoomuch:16752 2005-12-20T01:27:00Z 2005-12-20T01:27:00Z its been a really good day, details later<br />off to watch my christmas present (gilmore girls season 3!)<br />call me!<br />~&hearts;~ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ivegiventoomuch:16553 2005-12-19T03:09:35Z 2005-12-19T03:46:51Z forest gump okay, #1 new lay out<br />#2 nashville sucks! i hate going up there to see my step-grandparents, i dont even know them that well...and GRANNY IS CRAZY!! it was so funny! she walked around the house cussing all weekend long, and grampa, omg! he like, wants to learn everything in the world. he already speeks french but he's learning spanish, so he spoke spanish the WHOLE TIME. i didnt have a clue what on earth he was saying<br />so today, was pretty good, we left the grandparents house and went to a christmas party, and after that i got to hang out with david, which was fun, and then after that i came home and danced some, and after that...well, there is no after that, its like now, so anyways<br />goodnight you<br />goodnight my someone<br />goodnight all<br />~&hearts;~<br /><br />::eDiT::<br />ONLY ONE MORE EXAM!!! WOOHOO!<br /><br />::aNoThEr eDiT::<br />eating right and exercise starts tomorrow with the exeption of christmas eve...and i know i've said that before, but this time, i really mean it!